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Archive for the month “September, 2012”

Autumn Sunday

The crunching noise of rustling leaves underfoot

the canopy above and around me alight with colours

reds, orange, yellow and still a little green here and there

proper hiking boots, jeans and cozy parka

out for a walk, just because I can.

All around me autumn in all it’s splendour.

Even in the high street

the late summer sale and back to school have made way for

comfortable knits and stylish pants.

Make your way to the coffee house when you’ve had your fill of being buffeted by the brazing winds

or shopping has brought on a craving for coffee or tea,

cake or scones or even a late pub lunch

animated chatter catching up with friends

laughter and comparing best finds.


Here too it is finally autumn

the thermometer shows 28c/82f and it’s a glorious, sleepy sunday

cool enough for my body to exhale

a contented sigh of relief from the oppressive heat of the spring and summer months.

Last night we had an absolutely spectacular sunset

nature generously showing off in the most breathtaking of fashion.

Got to watch this rather unexpectedly from the boat

that we’d spent hours scrubbing down

frying my back in the sun.

Before enlightenment
cook food and scrub boat
after enlightenment
cook food and scrub boat.

Today I’m wearing one of my softest t-shirts

saying Tour de France 1994 (yes I was there!)

and the contrast between where the shoulder straps were and the rest looks rather comical

Fortunate I have witch-vera…!


But I still miss the distinctive change of seasons and

talking about plans and ideas with my old friends

with whom even not speaking is comfortable.

All while I make me and my love coffees, cuddle the Miao-cat

and sit down and write this in easy companionable silence at the kitchen table.


Catpaw, 23 September 2012


Honestly, I was so surprised to find this in my inbox today, I can’t believe it’s been an other year already!

Reflect, React, Renew:  Life’s biggest questions:  answered by you!  That is 10Q.

I do recommend doing this.  They email you one question per day and you have s’thing like 2 weeks to answer them.  Your answers are then ‘locked in a time vault’ and emailed back to you a year later.  Link at the end.  These are my answers from last yr.  What a great U2U!


Day 1:

Describe a significant experience that has happened in the past year. How did it affect you? Are you grateful? Relieved? Resentful? Inspired?

Your Answer:  Joining the Eloheim team and community was one of the best things I did.

Day 2:

Is there something that you wish you had done differently this past year? Alternatively, is there something you’re especially proud of from this past year?

Your Answer:   Been true to myself, but still working on that self-love bit. I seem to have some kind of amnesia concerning this last yr…

Day 3:

Think about a major milestone that happened with your family this past year. How has this affected you?

Your Answer:   Learning to set boundaries and interacting with each other in the here and now and not from unhealed scars in the past has made a world of difference. We are now interacting on an equals basis and that made it pleasant to interact rather than a chore to be tolerated.

Day 4:

Describe an event in the world that has impacted you this year. How? Why?

Your Answer:   The earthquake etc in Japan. It really brought it home how differently we all see the world, as we are, not necessarily as it is. I was amazed by the calm and dignity displayed by the people, and heartbroken by all the animals dead, starving or injured. And last but not least how organisations like Heartmath really made an impact with their structuring masses to holding space for those affected.

Day 5:

Have you had any particularly spiritual experiences this past year? How has this experience affected you? “Spiritual” can be broadly defined to include secular spiritual experiences: artistic, cultural, and so forth.

Your Answer:   Eloheim ”pawing” my head was peculiar sensation!  Too many to list really, including many ufos, some divine and blissful days, joyous synchronicity, and of course, in breaking my kindle and being given a new one by my fb friends… it was almost worth breaking it for the experience of love and care of people I have never met in the flesh. Maybe meeting in person is overrated?

Day 6:

Describe one thing you’d like to achieve by this time next year. Why is this important to you?

Your Answer:   I’d like to have finished and published a book. You teach what you most need to learn so somewhere along the way you learn… hopefully!
I’d like to have boundaries down to second nature, love and respect for myself all in working order, and just being generally in a balanced and harmonious state of mind.
Why? Cuz I’ve still got this thing about achieving something, and/or seeing ”results” of my labor.

Day 7:

How would you like to improve yourself and your life next year? Is there a piece of advice or counsel you received in the past year that could guide you?

Your Answer:   Overcoming the 3 universal fears on a personal basis would be great, and heal my core emotion.

Day 8:

Is there something (a person, a cause, an idea) that you want to investigate more fully in 2012?

Your Answer:   Bioacoustics soundhealing and the Dead Sea Scrolls.

Day 9:

What is a fear that you have and how has it limited you? How do you plan on letting it go or overcoming it in the coming year?

Your Answer:   Never finding my tribe….. thereby always feeling isolated and rejected. Identifying and dealing with the static involved. I’m so fed up feeling like I’m just not enough, no matter how much I accomplish, I still feel a failure b/c my skills are not in the category of ”cool”. What I’m drawn to and interested in doing is not sought after skills, even tho it could help so many so much. grrrr.

Day 10:

When September 2012 rolls around and you receive your answers to your 10Q questions, how do you think you’ll feel? What do you think/hope might be different about your life and where you’re at as a result of thinking about and answering these questions?

Your Answer:   Well, it could go either way: either I’ve changed beyond my wildest dreams, or not so much on the outside but still a fair bit on the inside. Or it’s been much ado about nothing.

Day 11:

What are your predictions for 2012?

Your Answer:   See q 10… I’d like to say a deeply fulfilling life, in a new more spiritual world, but the pragmatist in me suspects it’ll be more of the same with a bit of improvements due to usage of (Eloheim) tools.

Jaguars at the Gate

Last night as we were heading home from town we took the longer way around. As we drove towards the cemetery THERE THEY WERE! Like in the traditional ceremonial masks, two Jaguars with real eyes looking at me from the gates! I was fascinated, mesmerized even, as they moved ever so slowly looking right at me. I just could not believe what I was seeing, I kept blinking hard and they were still there. Jaguars are – or at least were- very important to the Mayans, but we are on a small island and to my knowledge there are none roaming about at night or we would soon hear about it. I stared open mouthed at the sleek and beautiful beings.

As we got closer ”reason” overpowered amazement. The black jaguars faded and I found myself staring at the white wrought iron scrolls that decorates the cemetery gates. But for those timeless seconds as we observed one another, the big cats of Mayan tradition were as real as the seat of the bike beneath me and the warm body of my husband in front of me.


That night, as we slept on our VERY comfortable NEW mattress I met a Guardian. He looked like an archetype;  native and wearing a traditional loin-cloth. He represented the element of fire, the colour red; energy; power; sexuality.

He stood in the doorway, or on the threshold, of the cabin I found myself in. Like a Sentinel between me and the worlds at large.

I don’t remember much of what he said apart from something about having more energy. Not sure if he was protecting just me for some reason but I did feel very safe and secure. Not just physically, I sensed he was also very knowledgeable.

The whole night was very lucid, the theme running through it all being Gods and Goddesses, Icons, amulets and traditional decorations All had a very intense feeling to them and made me wonder if they had been further infused to have their essence enhanced to a point where they felt… alive.

All in all I felt very grateful for all this magic bestowed on me. I’ve missed the feeling of having a real connection to the land and it’s Gods and Goddesses. In a way I felt more connected before I moved here. Indeed, my south and central american native roots were some of the first to make themselves felt in my heart and subsequently surface in my conscious mind also.

Catpaw on the 10 August 2009

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If I knew who to credit for this photo I would add it.  It’s not mine.

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