20 December 2011
Over the last 25 yrs or so I have learnt and used a variety of healing modalities including my own. This has been my sideline or hobby if you like. I have traded treatments and accepted the occasional donation but never charged for my services. Often the results have been astonishing to me.
My starseed astro chart also confirms masterships in healing and I have several other lifetimes as a healer and shaman.
After completing the last two courses I was attracted to add to my toolbelt – MTT (meridian tapping therapy or eft) and Reconnective healing – my intent was to take things further, hoping those two new and very potent modalities would allow me to go out and help more people.
Eager and enthusiastic, I did 15/20 sessions freely for practice and to get the ball rolling. My first client, a cat about 14 yr old, chose to exit 20 minutes after our (distance) session. Hmmm, not exactly encouraging but it got better. An elderly lady fully recovered from a stroke in 48 hours. A young woman who had been in a car accident and who had more or less been left to die due to laws and regulations, turned a corner that night; the two scull fractures showing clearly on the x-rays had miraculously healed a week later, but she suffered severe headaches and dizzyness for some time after.
I am NOT taking personal credit here, I see myself as a facilitator, an instrument. I have often likened the process to that of a phone-box; I have the quarter and the number to call… that’s it. The often called Unseen have the abilities. They show themselves to me these days in their deep blue robes and I think of them as the healing team, or simply the Masters.
The last course was a yr and half ago now and to date I’ve not had one paying customer. Not one. No one has even shown any interest. Early on I offered my services to a cancer hospice that offers various alternative like reiki, aroma therapy etc to their patients. Nothing. These days I only do animals and I have yet to encounter a furry client who fails to say thank you.
So when I think back to the teacher telling us 200 listening intently ”-Start by charging a minimum of $70 per session, whether it’s in person or distance doesn’t matter and then increase the price as you get a waiting list” , I can’t help think waiting list – my a**e.
Nor can I help the rather bitter feelings that have now all but replaced the love to help that once filled me. I’ve spent an awful lot of money with the sole intention to be able to be of service, but no one wants it. I don’t get it. Why is it that some, indeed rather snooty and arrogant individuals, still get so many requests that they have a waiting list? While I see noone? I certainly have no God complex nor is my ego involved.
I’ll be the first to admit to feeling disillusioned bythe whole thing and what to me feels like global rejection, but before that I was all love and fired up. So what went wrong? Altho I feel uncomfortably vulnerable here I still want to know. I can’t be the only one to have experienced this, surely.
I know people buy people, more that they’ll ever buy services. But I for one have encountered healing practitioners with sucky attitude that still make a living out of it.
I’ve never been a people magnet but I have wonderful and loyal friends who love and appreciate me and often say things like ”I feel so much better for just spending some time with you” and ”you’ve helped me so much”.
So where is the blockage? Where are (or shall I say were) the clients? I had set my fee to $33 (nice numerological vibe to it), but was also open to barter or donations (client gives to a charity of their choice) for a prospective client in need but without the means.
I did this because I wanted to help and knew I could. So why wouldn’t anyone let me?